Wednesday, October 10, 2007

We interrupt this life...

I've been horribly lax about this blog for a while. My excuses were preparing for the move, getting adjusted to living with my husband again, trying to find my way in a new town....

In truth, it was none of that.

My marriage was falling apart around my head, and I couldn't think about anything else. Subconsciously I apparently thought that if I held very still and got very small, this storm would pass me by. Not so much with that.

About 48 hours ago, I drove away from my marriage. I am currently staying with one of my sisters, who is caring for me very tenderly. Friends in DeKalb are waiting for me and have extended offers of mind-bending generosity. I will regroup, reclaim my life... step up to the plate and be the grown-up in my own story.

It all sucks. I always wondered how people could be blindsided by marital disasters. Now I know.

Please think good thoughts for me.

16 comments:

breadchick said...

Andrea,

I am so very sorry about what all this.

My thoughts are with you.

Mary

jill said...

Oh, Andrea. I am so sorry.

Wish I could have given you a hug... you're just going to have to imagine it.

Suze said...

Andrea,

I am sorry and I am thinking about you. Please take care of yourself.

Suze

Sharon said...

Andrea, you have more than my strong thoughts -- you have my strong will.

Sharon

Kimberly said...

Andrea, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I wish I could give you a hug, too. You're very much in my thoughts.

Alexis52 said...

Oh A, I'm so sorry. Let me know if there is anything I can do, especially if you come back to DeKalb. We're here for you.

Lexy

Andrea Rusin said...

Thank you dears for the kind words. THey buoy me, when little else seems to of late.

I'm heading for DeKalb tomorrow. I hope to make it in one day, but I'm not exactly at the top of my game. I promise to stop if I need to. I'll see the kids, hang with some friends. Then in a few days I'm going to take another little vacation - to Alabama. I will return and knuckle down and rebuild my life one step at a time.

It almost feels as scary to leave my sister's house as it did to leave Dave.

Alexis52 said...

My home is open to you, A. Anytime. I'm here by myself with a son who strolls in after work so my ear and arms are yours.

Just know that I'm here (or there) for you. Enjoy Bama.

Lianne Raymond said...

O.M.G.

Andrea, my stomach just clenched up - I am feeling for you big time. I know where you are right now, and I am amazed at how composed you are.

Sending you all my love and support.

Huge hug ((((((andrea)))))

Lisa :-] said...

(((((Andrea)))))

You are in my thoughts...

Michael said...

Oh, boy. This was not something I expected to read. Shout if you need anything.

Anonymous said...

Andrea, I'm so sorry. If there's anything I can do from the UP, please let me know.--Mollie

Barbara said...

I love you, Andrea, and I'm thinking of you, and I'm proud of you. Let us know when you get to DeKalb.

Barb

Anonymous said...

Oh no, Andrea. I can't believe I just read that! I am so sorry!! Take care of yourself. Hugs, Kellie

Alexis52 said...

A, please let us know when you get to DeKalb. A lot of cronies are wanting to know you arrived safely.
Lexy

Coupon Chris said...

You have really been in my thoughts for the last couple months. I am so sorry to hear this. Hugs and please let me know if there is anything you need.

Chris