Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Finding Courage

It's here somewhere. It must be.

I wish I could be like Crazy Aunt Purl, and be funny in he midst of this pain. As she went through a divorce, we laughed and cried with her. I, on the other hand, can hardly move. I'm up and I'm dressed (in workout clothes, because they're comfortable -not because I have any energy for working out) and that's it.

Oh, and I've made an appointment with a therapist and with an attorney. It's 10:00 in the morning. Where is the old "kicking butt and taking names" Andrea? Has anyone seen her?

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Andrea, both appointments sound satisfactory. I think that being up and dressed is also satisfactory. The old Andrea is still there--she's just waiting for the right moment to re-emerge. Mollie

Suze said...

You're there, Andrea. I can see you in your post, even if you can't.

Think of it this way: 10:00 a.m. is the new 8:00 a.m., particularly if you're not sleeping well.

Take care and take your vitamins! I am thinking of you.

Kimberly said...

It's good to see you posting!

I think a plan and a few appointments are a very good start.

The jokes will come. ;)

Alexis52 said...

As corny as it sounds, I think feeling your feelings is more authentic than brushing them off with humor. I'm still working on that one myself.

Getting up each day is a HUGE step in the right direction. It shows that you have faith that each day just might be a little bit better.
Lexy

Renee said...

You sound like you're doing remarkably well to me. Appointments made and being up and dressed (before 2pm!!) are major accomplishments. I know plenty of people who aren't in the middle of major life change who can't do that much.

Go easy on yourself. The old Andrea is...gone. The new one has just been birthed and is still a little wobbly, understandably so. But everyday she'll get stronger and see the world through new eyes.

breadchick said...

Good for you!! Renee is dead on. The old Andrea is gone and a new one awaits, take it easy and go easy on yourself (don't beat yourself up)

Sending good thoughts your way.

Michael said...

She's still around. She's just on retreat, trying to figure out what this new calling might mean and where it might take her.

Incidentally, if you're still in town and have any energy, there's a Taizé service Friday evening at 7:30.

Lisa :-] said...

Give yourself time. This is all still pretty raw, I think. The humor and the wisdom will emerge...

Sharon said...

What Suze said. I can still see you so you must be real.